My most dear, most kind, most precious wish-fulfilling one,
Thank you very much for your kind letter, I was very happy to receive it. I am sorry it took so long to reply to you.
According to my observation it’s very good if you take the Tibetan medicine called gurchung. Take one pill a day for five days. You should also drink blessed mantra water. I will bless the water and send it to you.
You should do the Vajrapani Hayagriva Garuda practice [Meditation and Recitation of the Threefold Wrathful One], which means to recite the mantra and do meditation. You cannot arise as the deity, but do all the meditations with the deity above your head, etc.
If you still want to become a nun, then plan to do it when you are twenty years old.
The other practice that is very good for you is to visualize the refuge merit field and then with Shakyamuni Buddha visualization, recite Shakyamuni Buddha’s holy name and mantra. If you can, do three malas every day of Shakyamuni Buddha’s holy name and mantra.
Another practice to do every day is the daily motivation, How to Make My Lives Wish-Fulfilling: The Method to Transform a Suffering Life into Happiness. This also has the blessing of the speech and daily mantras.
It is very important to meditate on the lamrim every day. This is very important. You could also recite one lamrim prayer every day. Read it slowly, going over the meaning. Lamrim is what you need to actualize, no matter how long it takes. Please put your effort there.
Please try to meditate on the lamrim based on guru yoga and on this basis you will get all the realizations and the most success in your life. It is important to try to achieve all the realizations in order to actualize enlightenment. This is in order to liberate numberless sentient beings and enlighten them. That’s the real project, the real goal of our life.
You need to have the Guhyasamaja root text recited for you five times. It isn’t translated yet; we only have it in Tibetan phonetics.
Recite the Vajra Cutter Sutra seven times.
What makes your life most meaningful is meditation on the lamrim, and to live your life with bodhicitta motivation. This is the best.
With much love and prayers ...