My most dear, most kind, most precious, wish-fulfilling one,
I am very, very sorry for the long delay. You should recite one mala a day of the Method of One Syllable of Letter the Mantra of Arya Manjogosha.* This is for success for you, to find a job and in your life.
The middle-length lamrim is the main lamrim to study from beginning to end. It is so important to have realizations of the lamrim in your life; that is the main purpose in the life, as much as we experience lamrim, especially realizations, that is the basis of the tantric path. Study the middle-length lamrim from beginning to end. Read it carefully four times so that it becomes a meditation as well.
Anything you don’t know you can write down and discuss with lamas, geshes or old students who have studied well, otherwise you might get wrong understanding. So study that. This is the most important thing in your life, how to make your life most meaningful by studying and training the mind in that, in order to actualize the lamrim—correctly following the virtuous friend, renunciation, bodhicitta and emptiness—which is the basis of Highest Yoga Tantra. Then do effortful meditation.
Do Lama Tsongkhapa Guru Yoga and within that, stop and do lamrim meditation.
Regarding your health, I checked. Please drink water that has many blessed waters mixed together, from many holy places, like Vajrayogini water, Mount Kailash water, Palden Lhamo lake in Tibet water—the lake which gives predictions—and Reting water, so by drinking that you become free from the lower realms. Also water from the place where Pabongka Rinpoche saw Heruka, that has the sound of Vajrayogini mantra in the water, and also water nectar from Padmasambhava’s cave at Maratika and so forth; so many holy places. The water is mixed and it also contains water that I have blessed with mantras, so it is all mixed.
You should drink this water four times a day for two weeks: very early in the morning, then at around nine a.m. or ten a.m., then at two p.m. or three p.m., and then in the evening before going to bed. Drink a few large spoonfuls of the water, not small spoons but big spoons, not teaspoons but the bigger size, so have two or three spoonfuls of water each time. I will arrange for someone to send the blessed water to you.
Your sickness is not so much going to be helped by Western medicine. It seems better to be checked by the Tibetan doctor, the lady doctor in Kathmandu. She worked for the Tibetan government before and now has her own treatment place. I don’t know her name, but if you check with her, it came out very good to take her specific medicine.
Thank you very much. My heartfelt thanks to you. Numberless thanks for all your dedication for enlightenment, for the teachings of the Buddha and sentient beings. You do so many practices, so I thank you very, very much.
With much love and prayers