My very dear one,
Thank you very much for your very kind letter.
I checked regarding your questions and you should practice Vajrapani Hayagriva Garuda practice [mantra: OM VAJRAPANI HAYAGRIVA GARUDA HUM PHET]. Please recite six malas a day, with meditation. If you haven't received any great initiation then you should visualize the deity in front of you and still do the meditation and recitation. If you have received a great initiation then you can still visualize the deity in front, and then generate yourself as the deity.
I am very sorry that I did not meet you when I visited your country, but hope to meet you next time.
I am making prayers for you and I also have asked the Sangha in my house to dedicate animal liberations and the making of long life tsa-tsas for you.
With much love and prayers...