My very dear Ani,
Thank you for your kind letters and messages. I am sorry it took so long to reply. I have checked and there are some practices that you need to do:
Write the Arya Sanghata Sutra seven times.
Recite three malas of Vajrasattva every day, if possible with prostrations, or while sitting.
Write the Golden Light Sutra 10 times.
These are strong purification practices and it is important to do all of them with a bodhicitta motivation.
It is very important that your whole retreat is based on lam-rim meditation—this is the most important thing. Please read and meditate on the lam-rim mindfully, not rushing, and relating it to your own life, to yourself.
If you can, read the Essence of Nectar and Essence of Refined Gold lam-rim books a little each day and keep reading them, plus other lam-rim texts. Carry on like this until you have stable realizations.
Please try to do everything with bodhicitta, the thought of benefiting all sentient beings, the thought to free all sentient beings from all sufferings and obscurations and bring them to enlightenment.
With much love and prayers,