So one time many years ago, when I was stay in Singapore, those early times. Singapore, or Hong Kong, I don’t remember, I got mixed up. Singapore or Hong Kong, I got mixed up. Can be Hong Kong, can be Singapore, can be anything. Anyway maybe Hong Kong, I’m not sure.

So we tried to liberate animals, that was probably first time, first time doing liberating animals, I think might be Hong Kong, probably. So the day before, the animals were bought the day before by somebody from the center, I think maybe three snakes, not snack to eat, the animal snake. I mean, they used..it’s used, snake by other people, that’s used for snack, to use, snake used for snack by other people in the restaurant, they use as snack. Snake used as snack in the restaurant. So if you don’t buy, then they go for snack. How do you say? Snack. [Student models pronunciation. Rinpoche repeats] Thank you very much. Now I know how to say snack. You need some tune with that, maybe with guitar, I’m joking. Anyway so if you don’t liberate, then they go for snack.

So anyway, the morning we went to the, to put out, I think its near reservoir water or lake, or something, so we didn’t put in the water, we liberated, you see, on the ground near the lake. So, they were in the sack, they were put, the whole night they were in the car, beside the car.

So then they were, when you put outside they could not go immediately, they were like kind of like intoxicated or buried [?], couldn’t move fast, retreat, I think very tired by meditating all night, exhausted, anyway I’m joking.

So anyway, so then when I was liberating with a student, when we were doing liberation, so the thought came in my mind if you let them go, they’ll eat mouse, they eat mouse in the forest, those small animals, pitiful, then there are frogs, near the water, they eat. If you let go, so harmful to all those other pitiful animals and they get eaten.

If you don’t liberate, then of course they cut in the shop, they cut, they have a very long body, so they cut, they cut the whole body, slice, so very long body, so of course they suffer, they suffer so long because very long body.

So one time, this was after we came from India, to Nepal, Lama and myself, we were supposed to go to Sri Lanka to start Mahayana center but that didn’t work out. I think it was good that didn’t happened, I don’t think that will be happy thing, I don’t think it will be successful there in Sri Lanka because I think just, I think lack of understanding, say, it’s Buddha’s teaching but, you know, so, difficult to understand the Mahayana teaching, the Buddha’s teaching, so they can’t…difficult for them to understand.

So anyway, so that time India and Russia didn’t have good relationship, I think. So the very first student, Zina, she’s the very first student, she’s from Russia and she had a name, Princess Zina Rachevsky, her father was king. There was a revolution happened in Russia, so they escaped to, they left Russia. The family lived, her parents lived in France.

Herself, she lived in many places, Greece, United States, so much of her life lived in the United States. I think her first husband, I don’t know whether it’s the first or not, anyway, married one, anyway, the first one, Karl Rooks [?], so that’s the one, that’s the husband where she gets some money when we were living in Nepal together or India, so the other husband where she gets some money to travel or to, say, to live there.

So that one, I haven’t met. The second husband, maybe met, I’m not sure. So, lived all kinds of life, very wealthy life and very poor life, maybe also beggar, I mean, maybe very poor life, all kinds of, she lived all kinds of life. So most people, the wealthy class people and ordinary, I mean the, all kinds of people in the world she knows. And, I think probably, I think, she was a model, I heard, she was a model, Hollywood or, I’m not sure, something, also model, that time.

So anyway, so the India government suspected, because there’s bad relationship with Russia, so they thought that she was Russian spy, Russian spy bringing sentient beings to enlightenment. Anyway, so there was difficulties living in India always. So she came from Sri Lanka, she lived there one year preparing for the center, or something. So during that time, so lived nine months with her in Darjeeling, so she received some teachings from Lama, so with a few words my broken English, but I’m still broken but, so, so I tried to translate while Lama’s learning English there from two missionary ladies who lived outside Darjeeling, between Kooli [?] and Darjeeling, there’s one town.

So those two missionary ladies, their bodies already like this, they’re very old, I think maybe 70, I’m not sure, 80 or something, already like this [showing], but still so eager to learn Tibetan, they wanted to spread Christianity. Their bodies already like this, but so much, so much, say, so much, say, expression, or say, you know, to learn Tibetan language to spread Christianity to Tibetan people, even their bodies already like that, unbelievable.

So Lama went to, so while staying with Zina, so Lama went to learn English from them at the same time learning astrology, you know, the producing calendar, all the details, from one Sherpa. I’m not sure whether he was a monk or not before, but he’s quite known, quite well-known by Tibetans and monasteries because of the calendar, his calendar, produce calendar, it goes Tibetans, Sherpa Langpa [?].

The great Pabongka, who, author of the Liberation in the Palm of Your Hand, passed away in Tibet, so reincarnated, and that reincarnation who become geshe in India, in Buxar where I lived eight years, so studied Tibetan grammar or Tibetan [?] from this Sherpa, this Sherpa, now you understand [? Tibetan name] I think might be under the advice of His Holiness Dalai Lama’s tutors, Ling Rinpoche, Trijang Rinpoche, I think.

So, anyway, so during those nine months, Lama finished learning astrology as well. The weather in Darjeeling is always foggy, always foggy or raining, that’s the weather there. So Lama goes with umbrella, there’s shoes from Buxar that many monks wear, same material from the car wheel, what’s it called? What’s the name?

Students: Tyre.

Rinpoche: Tyre. So tyre, thick, very thick, down below, it’s not like ladies shoes, the thick, say, thick rubber tyre, very thick on the bottom. And then very heavy cover on the top. So most monks, that’s what they use when they debate.

Unless the top breaks, but the bottom part of it thick, so it can last many lifetimes. So anyway, with that shoes in the rain.

So finished learning astrology and Lama said he can produce calendar, that. So then study English with some Tibetan sponsors, these two missionaries.

So anyway, so coming back, coming back from that tour, Darjeeling.

So there was, so she came, we went to Calcutta, that was my first time, Lama and myself first time being in Calcutta, one Indian city, completely packed city, different from Delhi, Delhi’s more spread out place very crowded, so crowded in the world, unbelievable, so stayed there seven days in the Theravadan, say, Buddhist Society, I think.

So we had Tara statue there in the room, when the monks come, they don’t like that because they don’t understand, because they accept only one Buddha I think, something that. I would think they would especially to accept past and future buddha, I would think because Shakyamuni Buddha is present one, so I think, so I would think.

So, anyway, so when we came from Calcutta to Delhi, in the same compartment, there’s six spies; in the same train compartment, there’s six spies, six Indian spies in the same compartment. They think she’s very important, but she’s not, she’s nothing. But that’s their view, it’s their belief because I think the way she, because the name, and maybe the way she, say, the way she appears, kind of very intelligent or clever or something, so maybe, I’m not sure. I think usually, if you are thief, if you are a thief, then you might think many people are thieves. But if you’re very good-hearted person, then even some bad people, you think they’re good people. If you’re a very good-hearted person, then you think everybody’s good. You trust, if you’re good-hearted person, then you believe many people, you trust them good, even though people are bad-hearted, cheating, however, stealing, but you always, you know, as your heart’s good, so you think other’s good.

But the person who himself or herself is engaged bad, you see, thief, or whatever, then there’s many suspects or something, other’s bad, so, then sometimes like that. So depending, so if you’re a spy, then you think many people, you think everyone’s a spy. So anyway, so depending what job you’re doing, then you think the other people like that.

Then in Delhi, we stayed in Maiden? Hotel, something that, so, I think maybe seven days, or I don’t know, seven days or one month, I’m not sure, seven days, something. Then her mother came there. Then wherever we go, when we went to Tibet House to see Domo Geshe Rinpoche or even other places, then wherever we go, outside, there was car and motorcycles, then wherever you go, there’s spies, six, seven spies, they come with car and motorcycle like this, like procession, like doing procession. Like when some important person comes, they do procession, but here is to watch. So like that.

Then they change, when you go to Dharamsala, or something, then the people change, different people come.

So, when she was ordained, so we request His Holiness to, she want to become nun, so His Holiness didn’t have time, so His Holiness sent over to Lati Rinpoche. So at Tushita, that time, His Holiness Trijang Rinpoche’s already moved lower Dharamsala, so that house is like, become haunted house or something, become there are a lot of mouse, no people were staying there in the house. So sometimes, I think, used by maybe Namgyal Monastery to do their activities.

So the ordination was held at Tushita. So during that time, I don’t remember, Lati Rinpoche was the abbot, but then I don’t remember who the other, Geshe Rabten Rinpoche, I’m not sure.

So then, during that time, the head of the spy, the top, the head of the spy from Delhi, normally when we come out of the train, he was there, a big guy, big guy, his moustache like this [showing], his name is Mr. Tsering or something like that, looks like Tibetan name. So he just stay outside the door, few times, he’s the head.

So he came Dharamsala, so while Zina was being ordained, but then he was down below the road, where the road down below the hill where the road goes like that. So he’s walking back and forth, back and forth, waiting, so that.

So, anyway, so I think, one week or two month [?], I’m not sure, stayed in Maiden [?] Hotel, so Lama, there’s sitting room, Lama’s other bench, then sitting room, there’s two bench so Lama slept on other bench, I slept on this bench in the sitting room, I think maybe, I’m not sure, two weeks or some time. Then, because could not go to Sri Lanka, so then, so Lama, this was Lama’s idea, go to Nepal for the time being. So how things started is by, so this is, so this, Lama started, you see, to go to Nepal, to Kathmandu.

So that was the, I’m not sure, I think the twelve year, the twelve animals, you know, each year, so the Bird, say, the twelve year, each one is the animal’s name. So that’s the Bird year. So it’s a special, the special year to make pilgrimage in Nepal. So every Bird year, that is a special time to make pilgrimage in Nepal.

So when we’re there, people came from all over the mountains, from Nepal, from all over to make pilgrimage in Kathmandu. Also there was lung of the Kangyur given by Dilgo Kyentse Rinpoche, the head lama Nyingma, Dilgo Kyentse Rinpoche, at Boudha. There was one Kagyu monastery. That time there was one Gelugpa monastery, I think that might be the first one, then there’s Kagyu monastery, that’s where Rinpoche [?]_, near the stupa, so that’s it.

Then later happened Sakya. That time there was only this monastery. A lot of places, I think, empty, say, like that. Now, full of monasteries, so many on the hills, on the ridge of the hill, Kopan and also, down below, many places.

So people come from all over the mountain, from very remote to make pilgrimage. So then, my mother, their family heard I was, so since I left, since I left Tibet, didn’t meet, so three years in Tibet and then eight years Buxa. So they heard that I arrived in Kathmandu, and they also to get lung, so they got made pilgrimage. So they all came down.

So including the past, the, who was said to be the past life Lawudo Lama, his name is also Lama Yeshe, his name called Lama Yeshe, so that one is not monk, married, say, I think received teachings Sakya and Nyima, I think, so came from Tibet.

So came from Tibet, crossing the Snow Mountain with one Nyingmapa lama, Dilgo [?] Rinpoche, who is doctor, physician, doctor, Tibetan doctor, so was expert in astrology, the Tibetan grammar, poetry, all those things.

So wherever he is, airport or wherever he is, always his body is straight like this [shows]. Even at the airport, same, at the house, wherever, always the same, always like this.

So one time, he was giving a teaching, not in the village where I was born, but after crossing the mountain, the Thangme I was born in Thangme, so there’s another village, after you crossing the hill on the way to Tibet, so same road to Tibet. So there’s an old stupa, built by some great lama. So there’s a monastery there.

So they gave some teachings, Nyingma, some, I think Gompa Sangpo [?]_ [Rinpoche speaks Tibetan], probably _[?] subject, view or something, that initiation, that past life, the son called Karma _ [Tibetan] so he told me that I had the karma to hold this lineage, that it’s my turn to receive this, to hold this lineage.

So they kept, I think, a place for me to come but I didn’t, I was building a monastery at that time. So the lama came to _ [Tibetan], the next hermitage, from where we get the water, that’s maybe 15 minutes walk from Lawudo, that hermitage, it’s on the way to Thangme.

So Lama was there, there’s also, I think a cave there, hermitage, so that lama, _[?] lama, who lives there, so he invited, so we were close by so to, then I invited at Lawudo.

So then night time, I asked Dilgo [?] Rinpoche, who was sitting where is the, the box, sleep, or, you know, so the Rinpoche was sleeping there. So I was asking, what food do you like, asked Dilgo Rinpoche, what food do you like? So Rinpoche, [said?] I have no, say, I have no, say, I have no, you know, no particular food, say, like this one, doesn’t like this. I have nothing, no food that dislike and like, that was his answer. [Long pause]

So, I think it means that Rinpoche doesn’t have worldly concern, means doesn’t have eight worldly dharmas, so that’s what it means, that his mind is pure Dharma, free from eight worldly dharmas, eight worldly concerns. Rinpoche said, I have no food that like this and dislike this. So, so then,early morning, early morning, then people start to come in the cave to get the lung, oral transmission, of that particular text from the lama. So, very early morning. But I discussed night before to the lama whether it’s beneficial for me to take this oral transmission of this teaching or not. So I thought if it came out great beneficial, I thought to take it. If it’s not great beneficial, then maybe just leave it, this is how it came in the mind.

So I asked the lama to do mo. So lama said, lama said it’s middle but he said, the protectors around Solu Khumbu, they’re more related to Nyingma, so good to take this. I haven’t made Dharma connection, relationship, with the lama before. It was I think past lives, I think, well, the Lama Yeshe or the Lawudo Lama, who’s said to be my past life.

So whose friend, came together from Tibet, cross the Snow Mountains, that lama himself explained because Lama Yeshe asked. When we invited Dilgo Rinpoche in D_ Monastery [Tibetan], the Mongolian lama’s monastery, monks who lived there is from another monastery from Tibet, _ Geshe Gyaltsen, one great lama like sun rising in this world, great lama, great Pandit, Tibetan lama who wrote many many teachings, pure Buddhism, preserved, spread, like sun rising. And established _ [Tibetan] near Nepal, established the monastery that which has very pure, pure monastery, living in Vinaya.

So their main emphasis, main emphasis there is Vinaya practice, living in the pure morality, very much emphasises the Vinaya.

So very pure, very good inspiring monastery, so the main emphasis is on that, not so much emphasis on, where so many of the monasteries, main emphasis is on the study, you know of the extensive ? philosophy, so things that. So here, the particular monastery that, main emphasis is on that, the practice.

So the monks, of course, escaped, then they lived in that monastery, monastery was built by one Mongolian lama, who lives in Mongolia.

So, so that’s the monastery where we lived for almost one year, in one of the rooms upstairs. So she lived, so she come there to eat and to meet, but lived, the caretaker of the Boudha Stupa, the very large stupa in Kathmandu, the caretaker called Chine [?] Lama. So he has few sons, so one of the sons, one son called Thubten [?], so the son had two houses, Boudha. So one green house, so she stayed there. So later we moved from monastery there. Of course, I took different teachings from Kyabje T_[?] Rinpoche, the head, say, the head lama Nyingma, so different times, that. Then myself and some quite a number of students, I think, second, part of Second Dharma Celebration I think, the Thirteen Golden Dharma, not complete Sakya tradition, didn’t receive complete but most of it, accept three, most of it received from His Holiness Sakya Trizin at Bodhgaya.

So Lama had that intention but didn’t decide, so Lama already passed away. So I checked with His Holiness?? Then, we requested, so I think that was part of the Second Dharma Celebration.

Then of course, many initiations, many precious, great, about 60/70 [?] or something from guru of His Holiness Sakya Trizin, as well as from whom His Holiness _[?] talking quickly received, I think the Lam Dre teachings, those, the major practice, the initiation Sakya Lam Dre. Also,from whom His Holiness received Sakya Lam Dre teachings , _ Rinpoche [talking quickly] so, those 67 [? 60/70 ], many precious initiations.

Also Kyabje Khunu Lama Tenzin Gyaltsen, from whom His Holiness received the extensive teachings on the Bodhicaryavatara, also Lamp of the Path to Enlightenment, and also The Praise to Bodhicitta and Bodhicaryavatara commentary and one is I think oral transmission for just myself in Rinpoche’s room, Bodhgaya, one of those guest rooms upstairs.

So I requested commentary, but Khunu Lama Tenzin Gyaltsen Rinpoche, so he’s a great bodhisattva, great pandit, same, exact same as all those lamas of ancient times, great pandit, appears like that, face reminds.

So, I requested commentary, but Rinpoche gave lung, of course I was all alone, so, of course, that was a waste Rinpoche’s time to give commentary. But, I think, I think too, you know, I don’t know why I asked for commentary, maybe too greedy; not to practice but I think too greedy, I think. Not for practicing.

So anyway, so Rinpoche gave lung, oral transmission. And then when Rinpoche started Wisdom chapter, the minute when Rinpoche started commentary on the Wisdom chapter, then I fell asleep! But before that, when there’s lung, I didn’t fall asleep. But when Rinpoche came to the commentary, the most important, the heart of the Buddha’s teaching then I fell asleep. So I think there’s negative karma, there’s some negative karma created there, obstacle to hear teachings on the Perfection of Wisdom, I think.

So Rinpoche’s a Nyingma, but when he teach, when he give Bodhicaryavatara teachings, so there’s Gelugpa geshes and other traditions, so he present according to each tradition. There’s four traditions, Tibetan Mahayana Buddhism, four traditions, so _ [?] Rinpoche present the views according to each tradition, like that, so that’s what Rinpoche, himself explained. I’m Nyingma myself, but I present this way according to their own tradition, which is very wise.

So I was asked by the son, the Lawudo Lama, so that, well here the story is that, seems somebody who lay, married lama, so lay tantric practitioner, but it seems people comment, say, the lamas, the good practitioner, so many years living hermitage, cave and then do retreat and give time-to-time give initiation, teachings to others so lived life, a simple life like that. So if that was my past life, then I think this life is wandering, this life become wandering in the world, like a dog. Not living in the hermitage, retreat, you know, wandering, wandering like dog in the world, you see.

So, anyway, so, I don’t know why I started this one. [People are offering up thoughts on why Rinpoche started this]

But I don’t know why Sri Lanka came! Why Sri Lanka came.

Students: Zina?

Rinpoche: Anyway I forgot. Doesn’t matter. So anyway, say, what I’m saying. Anyway, come back, come back home. After the distraction, come back home.

So, anyway, so, the snake, you see, so what to do? If you liberate, it harms many sentient beings, all those, you know, all those frogs and mouses, all those, pitiful, anyway, so terrifying, even for us human beings, that terrifies. No question these small animals.

So anyway, then, if you don’t liberate, of course, they get killed. Ah! Now I know! A le! [Remembers his train of thought] I went the long way! I took the long path!

So in Nepal, so we were staying at this Chime [?] Lama’s son’s house, another one with double vajra, which is near the road from Boudha, Boudha Stupa’s here, then there’s a main road, so somewhere here. So we were staying there about a year or something, at the house.

So we were living with Zina and a French doctor who voluntary works in the public hospital, Santi Barb_ [?] in Kathmandu. Of course they volunteer to help, young French doctor.

So he received meditation, he asked for meditation. Lama gave Vajrasattva meditation to him. Then he told Lama: ‘What’s the difference, visualizing Vajrasattva, and the shoes outside, the shoes, Rinpoche’s shoes outside, visualize shoes on your head, visualizing shoes on your head; Vajrasattva or the shoes? the doctor asked. The doctor told to Lama.

Anyway, it just shows he doesn’t understand, visualizing Buddha, so for him, he don’t see differences, shoes on the head and the deity Vajrasattva. So anyway, so, but he’s kind-hearted, so lived with but not really, you know, take teachings or, initiations [practice?] probably not. He follows [?] his own things.

So French doctor, French artist [?] and wears Afghanistan dress, this long dress, always talks about Afghanistan and this Golamata [?], some place I think he must live, for a long time, I think, Golamata, or huh?

Student: Guatemala?

Rinpoche: Guatemala, or something. Always talks.

So anyway, so we lived together, so he makes oil paintings, huge oil paintings, nice person. So, anyway, so this French doctor, there’s a lot of snakes outside, so that’s the story! In the field lots of snakes, so the French doctor catch snakes, the French doctor catch, I meant their friend, and then they wear the snake on the head, I mean, on their neck.

So then, during one lunch time, he catch snake. Then the French doctor cut the snake, all the way through. So when I go outside, still her heart is moving, her body is gone, [poor thing?] only you see the heart. But this part has the heart there, like this exactly this shape? [showing them, explaining]. Bumping like that. This is what I was going to tell you. I went the long road. So, anyway, so can’t imagine, unimaginable suffering.

So that time, so what to do? What to do? There’s no other way, you know, the only thing, the only thing is you liberate yourself, you know, and then help other sentient beings, you liberate other sentient beings. That’s the only way, that’s the only thing what you can do, how you can solve these problems. You liberate yourself from the suffering of samsara and the cause, delusion and karma, and then, you see, liberate others by revealing the path. So that’s the only way, say, finish the suffering and the sufferings of other sentient beings, including these snakes and these frogs, whatever.

So the conclusion is only Dharma practice. There’s one answer, solution, solution, you see, concerning yourself, concerning others, nothing else except Dharma practice to end, finish the suffering, to end the suffering of samsara, to end the reincarnation.

So what I was saying before, you see, so now here, you can see again urgency, emergency, urgency to actualize the path, not just, it’s good, not just, say, do some mantra or do something, but to really study the path and meditate, the main road.

You have to go the main road, actualize the, however, lam-rim, the root, the base, root, guru devotion, three principal paths, we have to have, say, this foundation, renunciation, is the foundation, door of the path to liberation, bodhicitta, door of the path to enlightenment, then, of course, emptiness need both, wisdom realizing emptiness, for both, to cease disturbing thought obscuration, to cease subtle defilements, both you need, this is only directly you can cease is the wisdom directly perceiving emptiness, three principal paths, that’s the very foundation, must. So the, people who listen, reflect meditation on the path, to actualize the path, to cease, that can cease completely the defilements, disturbing thought obscuration, the karma and delusion and subtle defilements. On top of that, subtle defilements, by actualizing the Mahayana path, say, so by entering the Mahayana path from the beginning, one can remove both.

And by entering the, engaging in the Lesser Vehicle path, then the first, only the disturbing thought obscuration get removed. Then one’s enter, enter the Mahayana path, then remove the subtle defilements, so that.

So the, say, so need to study, so study and do listening, reflecting meditation, experiencing the path. So learning to do both, all of them, so meditation is experienced.

So, you can see now, how this is most urgency, most urgency for you, most urgency for numberless hell beings, for the benefit of numberless hell beings, for the benefit of numberless hungry ghosts, for the benefit of numberless animals, for the benefit of numberless human beings, suras, asuras, intermediate state beings, so all these things, like that.

So the, the last part, I don’t remember we finished that…