My very dear one,
Thank you very much for your email. I am sorry for the long delay in replying.

According to my observations, you need to do purification practice and confession to the gurus. This is not necessarily only your gurus in this lifetime but also all your past lives. To do this, Samayavajra practice would be very beneficial, also Lama Tsongkhapa Guru Yoga practice [which is available from the FPMT Foundation Store.] Do these practices as much as you can.

Then, specifically for your health, it is best for you to recite the White Umbrella prayer and mantra as much as possible. Four malas a day would be best or at least one mala a day. This practice has many benefits, one particular benefit is healing asthma. This practice is very powerful for purification and protection.

Also, it would be very good if you could sponsor a big puja of wrathful White Umbrella in one of the great monasteries, but this may not be possible to do. It may cost a lot and be difficult to organize. However, you can organize 5,000 White Umbrella prayers to be recited at Sera Je Tehor Khangtsen. This would be very beneficial for you and I can help you to organize this. I don't think this puja would be too expensive. When the bill comes you should think when you are paying it that you are making offerings to the Sangha, so you collect a lot of merit, because there are so many monks at the monastery and most of them are fully ordained; there is more merit in offering to a fully ordained monk. Also, all these monks are disciples of His Holiness the Dalai Lama, so by making one offering to them you are making offerings to the pores of the guru. Offering to the pores of the guru collects far more merit than making offerings to numberless buddhas, Dharma, Sanghas, statues, stupas, scriptures, and all the holy objects. So, when you make the offering think that you are offering to the guru’s pores, by remembering His Holiness the Dalai Lama, and then you collect a lot of merit.

Then, you can dedicate all this merit not only to your healing but to all sentient beings achieving all happiness, especially enlightenment. This way it benefits everybody, every single sentient being. Also, the merits can be dedicated to the long life of His Holiness and all other holy beings, that all their wishes are fulfilled. Dedicate that Buddhism, from where all sentient beings’ happiness comes, will last long, flourish, and spread. Also, make dedications to actualize the whole path up to enlightenment as quickly as possible, for you to achieve enlightenment. I will send you a picture of White Umbrella Deity.

Then, it would be very good for you to liberate 400 animals. Try to do this yourself. You can do this at the Dharma center and with other people. I have asked the Sangha at my house in the USA who practice animal liberation three times a month to dedicate it to you for some time. Do the animal liberation practice that I have put together, put as many holy objects as you can on a table (tsa-tsas, statues, scriptures, etc) then circumambulate the animals around the holy objects, chant mantras and bless water, which you then sprinkle on the animals before you release them.

Take a long life initiation 100 times. This means that during the initiation the geshe should put the torma on your head 100 times, and at that time you should visualize the long life deity absorbing into you 100 times, and that you are achieving immortal realizations. As you hear the geshe repeating the mantra DZA HUM BAM HO think the torma deity absorbs into you.

You need to have the puja called "Betraying the Death” (in Tibetan, Chi Lu) done for you. It can be based on Sang Cho, Kha Bar, Tara Cittamani, Lama Atisha, Tendrel Chi Lu, or other deities. Ask the geshe at the Dharma center if he can do this for you. You should make an offering to him when he does the puja.

You need to make 150 long life tsa-tsas. It is best if you can do this yourself. You can think that this is part of your preliminary practices. You do need to know well how to make them so there are no bubbles or faults in the tsa-tsas, otherwise you might spoil many tsa-tsas.

Ask the geshe to do tul dup five times. Also, try to do the practice “Torma Purifying the Obscuring Pollution” five times.

If all these pujas can be done within two weeks then maybe it would be best to stop taking Western medicine. In my observations, there would seem to be some harm in this case. However, to stop taking it before doing all these practices could be dangerous, there could be obstacles. If you do all these practices then maybe it would be good to stop taking the medicine, but still you need to check with your doctor to make sure. If I have any more information I will let you know.

I am very sorry for such a long delay in answering you. I must apologize for that.

With much love and prayers...