It seems that you have some black magic. One thing that came out is for one nun to do Vajra Claw three times for you. This is very important and has already been requested.
You need Lion-face Dakini practice to be done 11,000 times by the Kopan Lama Gyupas. If money is not a problem for you, then it’s beneficial to make a good offering to them, as that is also part of purifying or changing the karma, making offerings to the Sangha and the pores of the guru, etc.
When you had a simple life, you might have thought it would be so much better if you had more money, more space and so forth. Perhaps from time to time you might have thought if only you had more money; that wish can arise. Sometimes when it is an especially hard life, then those thoughts might arise.
Now I think [your wealth is] because you came to clean the stupas. I told you to clean the stupas, so there are unbelievable merits from doing that, and then you wrote the Sanghata Sutra thirty times. Wow, wow, wow, wow. I wish I was that person who wrote the Sanghata Sutra thirty times. There are so many projects in the FPMT; unbelievable projects that are to benefit sentient beings and the teachings of Buddha. I am the one who is supposed to do that, to write out this many sutras, to create the merit for all the projects.
Cleaning the stupa is unbelievable merit and purification, so now, suddenly you have an unimaginable life, like a dream, and you make each year so much money. But you see, with that you have obstacles, with that you can’t enjoy life, and especially violent thoughts arise. This cuts down your practice, so there is less virtue, less mind to have virtue, therefore depending on that you can receive black magic and this problem arises.
In my observation the Kopan Lama Gyupas need to do the Lion-face Dakini prayer 11,000 times. If you count each monk then it’s easy. So this came out very good. And one nun should recite Vajra Claws three times for you.
You need to protect your life, otherwise the situation can be very dangerous. You need to wear some protections. I will bless them here and post them to you. [Visit the FPMT Catalogue to find protection items.] The protections you need to wear are:
- White Umbrella protection
- Namgyalma protection
- Lion-Face Dakini protection
Take them off when you shower or swim so that they don’t get wet and take them off when you sleep, but keep them close to you. Otherwise, wear them.
Going for pilgrimage is best for you, like to Mount Kailash and Tibet. It directs your energy toward positive things, intention.
Complete the year doing your job as you have promised, then you can see. Anyway, you can think that with the money you earn then you can do pilgrimage, you can do many things.
What is the dedication that you do when writing out the sutra or when you finish a sutra? Do you make a very good dedication? This is so important. I am attaching the general dedication that I do.
Please guard your mind and your life. As Lama Tsongkhapa has said, this is only one time that you have received a perfect human body and met the Dharma. Not only have you met the Dharma, the four noble truths, to be free from samsara forever, but you have also met the Mahayana Sutra Dharma, in order to achieve enlightenment for all sentient beings, and not only that, you have met the Mahayana tantra teachings, which are a quick way to achieve enlightenment in one life, to bring sentient beings quickly to enlightenment. Not only that, you have met Highest Yoga Tantra, in order to achieve enlightenment in a brief lifetime of degenerate time, to be able to enlighten sentient beings quickly.
This is so precious, it’s unbelievable, so please protect your life from spirit harms. This is your negative karma. The result of negative karma is spirit harm, negative thoughts, negative actions and thoughts to harm, which destroy you. Please don’t follow what the negative mind thinks, the thoughts that arise. Don’t immediately follow that.
Many times things happen and many people kill themselves. This is actually due to following spirit harm, due to negative karma, so the spirits make people think a certain way. People think it is their own thoughts, “This is what I feel, what I think,” then they do that action, causing harm.
For example, in Japan there was a man standing at a train station, and suddenly he pushed another man who fell down in front of the train and was killed. So many things can happen due to spirit harm. That man said someone told him to push the other man. So you have to be careful and look for reasons. Be careful and look for reasons, logical reasons, otherwise don’t do negative things, don’t just follow what your mind thinks or says.
I checked and you don’t need to write the Sanghata Sutra anymore, so now you can write out Dependent Arising: A Praise of the Buddha by Lama Tsongkhapa 5,000 times. This is so you have realizations of that.
This is my advice at this time.
With much love and prayer ...