My very dear one,
I have one more advice for you. I heard that when some people help or serve you, maybe it is not according to what you like sometimes and you get angry.
Practicing patience is so, so important. It’s the most important practice. It keeps us from the three lower realms, where the suffering is unimaginable.
Practicing compassion one time is so important! Reciting many manis, like the 100 million mani retreat, most of the time the mind is distracted and then the motivation may be missing or we forget the dedication. So many obstacles.
If we practice one-time patience, preventing anger, not allowing anger, we are protected from the enemy of virtue. If we get angry with someone who has bodhicitta then we destroy the merits of having attained charity for thousands of eons. All the merit created with the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha is destroyed for thousands of eons.
We can’t tell from the outside [appearance] who is a bodhisattva and who isn’t. The only one that we can really see is our own mind; only that we can know one hundred percent.
So, patience is the most important practice up to enlightenment, to protect us.
This my advice to you.
With love and prayers ...