My most dear, most kind, most precious wish-fulfilling one,
Thank you very much for your kind letter, I was very happy to receive it. I am sorry for the many eons of delay in replying to you.

It is very good if you do the Amitabha practice, reciting one mala of the mantra. I am also sending a photo of Amitabha for you to look at when you do the practice.

Regarding your very kind offering, it came out to use the money for writing the Prajnaparamita in gold. Offering for that is an unbelievable way for you to collect merit.

When you do your practices, please continue to recite the prayers that you are doing now for your parents, your ex-wife and child. That is very good.

Please read the Heart Sutra and Vajra Cutter Sutra every day. This is so important and is a quick way to realize emptiness. We need the wisdom realizing emptiness—we need to have a direct perception of emptiness in order to cease delusion and karma, the cause of samsara and in this way to become free from samsara. In this way we can help other sentient beings become free from samsara and then with bodhicitta we can achieve enlightenment. So it is mainly to benefit the numberless sentient beings and bring them to enlightenment, but by the way it will help your temporary obstacles, such as nightmares and other obstacles.

You also need to have strong refuge in and reliance on Buddha, Dharma and Sangha in order to be protected from obstacles.

If you are able to become a monk, it would be extremely good to take the vows.

You need to take a long-life initiation, if there is one of your lamas in the area who is giving that or if you can request it from them.

You need to recite the Golden Light Sutra four times.

You also need to recite two malas a day of Most Secret Hayagriva mantra, but if you have not received the initiation you cannot arise as the deity. First take refuge to Buddha, Dharma and Sangha. It is important to remember that you are not only thinking about yourself, but samsara is endless and there are numberless sentient beings in samsara who are suffering so much, so you should dedicate for them. Then take strong refuge in Buddha, Dharma and Sangha. You can look at the Most Secret Hayagriva picture and recite the mantra. While you are reciting the mantra, think that beams are emitted from Most Secret Hayagriva and purifying all your negative karma, spirit harm, sickness and obscurations.

It comes out beneficial for you to wear a blessed string, so I will send that to you.

With much love and prayers ...