For you it comes out very good to do Chenrezig practice; reciting OM MANI PADME HUM very much. If you have the great Chenrezig initiation, you can use the short version sadhana from France, from the retreat there. Also there is one short practice from Kopan Library.
Recite 10 malas of OM MANI PADME HUM per day. Also learn the benefits, know them.
Without initiation, use a picture or thangka. Nectar beams come from the actual Chenrezig, entering your body and mind and purifying diseases, spirit harm, negative karma and defilements ( the last two most important) from beginningless rebirths, like milk coming through a glass pipe. All the dirt and garbage comes out. Do this for seven malas, then the eighth mala purifies numberless sentient beings in the six realms. Purification is the main process. Then the ninth mala: all realizations and qualities are received from Chenrezig—omniscience, compassion and power—perfect, without mistakes. Then the last mala: all sentient beings receive all the qualities.
Before reciting the 1,000 short mantras, recite the long mantra 21 times if possible. If not, no problem.
If we recite ten malas every day, there is unbelievable purification. Eons and eons of negative karma are purified, especially if the practice is done with bodhicitta—for numberless hell beings, numberless pretas, numberless animals, numberless human beings, numberless gods and demigods to be purified and for all beings to achieve enlightenment.
That means we come closer to enlightenment. Then, when walking on the road and the wind touches us, it is blessed. Then, when this wind touches others, they are purified and don’t have to experience the lower realms. By touching our body, others are purified. When we stand on a hill and those below look up, or if we are at the football stadium and others look at us, they are purified. We become meaningful to behold. Similarly, in the ocean, beings that live there or play in the water are purified.
When the body is burned, whoever is touched by the smoke is purified. The benefits are infinite. Then, when we die, Chenrezig stretches his hand out to us and helps us.
With much love and prayer...