My very dear Jean,
For Indians and Nepalis, normally, the biggest two events in their lives are marriage and death; usually they don't think about death. For you, this is a replacement for marriage. In reality, this is the biggest thing in your life – this moves your feet toward enlightenment. This is the biggest step toward liberation – a great decision.

This is one of the biggest things in life for a Dharma practitioner, as well as death. For someone who is renounced, then death is just a transit, like traveling from one place to the next, like you are now flying to India. Of course, when death comes, it is traveling with your mind, not your body; you just travel with your mind.

I carry three suitcases of texts when I travel, and I have two smaller suitcases of texts and holy objects, so it will be very difficult when I travel with my mind, as I won’t be able to carry even one page, even my jola. I can't make them mental, familiarize all these texts. So, when I am in the hell realms, none of my many suitcases will be there with me, and that will be a very sad thing. I will miss them.

With much love and prayers...