My most dear, most kind, most precious, wish-fulfilling one,
Do you remember if you kicked an animal or a human being, or caused a lot of pain to one? Do you remember doing that in this life ? If not, then it is past life karma. If you remember something, then it could also be this life’s karma.
When my teacher Gen Jampa Wangdu was in Tibet, before he started studying, there was an old man in the debating place. Gen Jampa Wangdu picked up a stick and beat both the old man’s knees for some time. Later, in Dharamsala, I think seven years before passing away, Geshe la said he had a lot of pain in his knees, so much pain in his knees, and he thought it was because of what he did in the monastery a long time ago.
[He showed this] outside aspect, but he had very high realizations. [The pain in his knees] was instead of experiencing the lower realms for eons, with heavy suffering for a long time. Of course this is just what he showed. Of course, he is a buddha, but outside he showed that teaching, what he experienced in this life, then he finished the karma, so he showed that aspect.
Ordinary people would have to experience the lower realms instead, maybe for eons, and they would have to experience unbelievable, unbelievable suffering. Compared with that, the suffering of human beings is nothing. As a human, even the most heavy suffering is great peace compared to the suffering of the lower realms.
I checked and these are the pujas needed for you:
- Golden Light Sutra: twice
- Torma Purifying the Obscuring Pollution : twice
- Tsung-du at Tsawa Khang-tsen [monastic house at Sera je Monastery, South India]
There might be other pujas, but this is what I can think of now.
With much love and prayers...