My very dear one,
I am so sorry for the long delay it took to reply to your kind email. When I checked about your life practices, it seems you have some life obstacles, so first you need to print 140 Amitayus Long Life Sutra, and also read the sutra.

Maybe after some time you can become a monk. Before that, take eight Mahayana precepts many times; as much as you can.

What makes your life most meaningful is meditation on the lamrim, and to live your life with bodhicitta motivation. This is the best.

With much love and prayers...