You said that you met with a Tibetan lama, who you consulted about your business. He did an observation and said there were many problems but the business could change. Because your business didn't change, now you are having doubts about Buddhism, about your beliefs, about being generous to the masters and abbots of the monasteries, and making offerings to them.

The lama you met with said things could change this year. This year is not finished yet. You should think about what he said. He said it COULD be changed this year. He meant it's possible, if the causes and conditions come together, if you create them, then things can change. But it seems that you are clinging to the idea that things could change very fast. Even though the year has not finished, your doubts arose. It seems to me that you expected too much too quickly, and this made you upset because it's not happening.

There was a very high lama, the head of the Nyingmas, Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche. Our first student, the Russian lady, Princess Zena Rachevsky, lived in Nepal for many years, studied with Lama Yeshe, and translated. Her husband, a quite wealthy American man, sent money for her every year, maybe every six months. She, Lama, and I lived on that money. One time the money didn't come for a long time, in the Year of the Rooster, which is a special year to make pilgrimage in Nepal. Many people come over the mountains to make that pilgrimage. At that time, Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche was giving the transmission of the Kangyur in Nepal. She went to ask him to do a divination to see whether the money would come. The money didn't come, so I told her that if the person who asks the question doesn't have the karma to receive the right answer, but to receive the wrong answer, then this is what happens. I also did a divination. I told her that, for myself, if a mistake is made, then it is my own mistake, but with high lamas, there is no mistake, they are enlightened beings, so they don't make mistakes. If the other person has the karma to receive a wrong answer, that is what happens. She understood that situation one hundred percent.