My most dear, most kind, most precious wish-fulfilling one,
Thank you very much for your kind letter. Regarding your comment about maybe having a mental illness for a thousand years, actually it’s not a thousand years, it’s numberless years.
I checked regarding your situation and you need chag sum puja done three times. This puja should be done by the incarnate lama from Sera Je Monastery called Kentse Rinpoche. He came out best to do the puja. If you can manage it, go to see this lama and request the puja.
Also ask the geshe at the center to do a peaceful fire puja for you. You will need to meet him and discuss this, the costs, etc. You can let him know it is my advice and it came out for him to do it for you.
You need to wear the protection, Liberation of Body Speech and Mind. I can post this to you.
So please try this.
With much love and prayers ...