Dear one,
Thank you very much your letter confessing and recognizing your mistakes. Yes, your motivation was not holy Dharma at all; it was the root of samsara. It began with jealousy and the three poisonous minds, and like small children fighting you were creating rainfalls of negative karmas. I realized all the problems, what came out, there is some cultural attachment [to] nationality, but one person wants to practice holy Dharma and to read the whole lamrim, Liberation in the Palm of Your Hand.

When you come to work at the center, that means not only meditation and studying holy Dharma, but even working for the center becomes Dharma. That means with guru devotion or with renunciation of this life, with renunciation of samsara or with bodhicitta, which becomes the cause of enlightenment, then right view, so all the actions become the antidote to samsara and its root, grasping at the I.

For example, the great yogi Milarepa in his earlier life, through black magic, killed thirty people upstairs, then downstairs maybe sixty or more horses were killed. But as the lama advised, if he practiced holy Dharma and followed Marpa, then he would become fully enlightened. Then because Milarepa was able to follow his guru Marpa exactly, by building towers, three times, only by himself, with not one single laborer helping him, he achieved the unified state of Vajradhara, in a brief lifetime.

You have to be sure you are not playing games, and not still only playing politics. Then it is better not come to work. This black politics looks like working for the center or for others from the outside, but if the work is mainly done for yourself, for power, reputation, wealth, then it does not become holy Dharma at all.

With much love and prayer ...