My dear one,
Thank you very much for your card and note. [I will explain] the purpose of practicing tantra, especially Highest Yoga Tantra.

If you only practice Sutra, the Paramitayana path, it will take three countless great eons to complete the merit of virtue and the merit of transcendental wisdom, to be able to achieve the two kayas. That means sentient beings have to suffer for a long time. Therefore, that is the reason for practicing tantra. Even practicing the lower tantras, you are able to achieve enlightenment in one life, but that means practicing during a long life—you pause your life for hundreds and thousands of years, then you achieve enlightenment.

Therefore, you should practice Highest Yoga Tantra, because it is the most skillful way to achieve enlightenment in one brief lifetime of degenerated time. The gross mind does not go to enlightenment; only the extremely subtle mind. Therefore, you need to actualize simultaneously-born clear light. Lower tantra does not have this method to actualize this, only Highest Yoga Tantra, so that’s why you need to practice Highest Yoga Tantra.

I have checked, and according to my observation, the deity for you to practice came out to be Secret Vajrapani. This is your mind-seal deity. The other deity that came out is Secret Hayagriva, but anyway, mainly you should practice Secret Vajrapani. This deity comes out beneficial for you according to my observation.

Please continue to make your life most beneficial to sentient beings—to each and every hell being, hungry ghost, animal, human, sura, asura and intermediate state being—by practicing bodhicitta. Live your life as much as possible with bodhicitta motivation, as much as you can.

Much love and prayers ...