My very dear one,
Thank you for your kind letter. I read it.

Realizing emptiness of the I is not nihilism—that there is no I at all. In the beginning that experience of realizing emptiness may come like falling into nihilism—that there is no I—but at the end the conclusion is that there is I, but it’s like it doesn’t exist. It’s not that there is no I; it is like there is no I.

It’s unbelievably subtle. There is I, but how it exists is unbelievably subtle. It exists in mere name, merely labeled by the mind. There is explanation in the texts that the way things exist harms the real I, the truly existent I, existing from its own side, existing by itself. It harms that, the merely existing I.

With much love and prayers...