My most dear, most precious, most kind, wish-fulfilling one,
Thank you very much your kind letter. Your experience is very precious. Continue and don’t degenerate.
My suggestion is you can do what many people are doing: a loose retreat, so loose in the daytime. Do work and things [during the day] and in the morning and evening do retreat. So do light retreat and it gets done.
If you are waiting to finish your job and then do long retreat, it may not happen, so you can do loose retreat. This way, you can do loose retreat and it gets done. Loose means not very strict, so do sessions in the morning and evening, and go to work in the daytime. You should have the boundary very far, quite far, because you have to travel for your job, so make a big boundary. It’s excellent for you to continue.
Yes, you are right, we need to serve our parents when they are old, but the best thing to repay their kindness is by you learning Dharma, understanding Dharma and actualizing Dharma. That is the best way, and to be free from samsara and to achieve enlightenment.
Kirti Tsenshab Rinpoche was expert on Kalachakra and he saw the Kalachakra deity when passing. For a long time he was holding his hands in the mudra of prostrating, as he was seeing the deities. That happened. Alak Rinpoche was worried he would be tired with his hands up, but Kirti Tsenshab Rinpoche explained he was seeing the deity. However, Kirti Tsenshab Rinpoche passed away, unfortunately.
With much love and prayers...